It has been a difficult road through this pregnancy… Easy at times, but not all the time…

My boyfriend still has not even tried to come to me and say that he wants to be a part of our Life…
He has gotten freedom and everything out of us getting pregnant… I have matured extremely, changed just about my whole life, and lost my love life…
He has a new girl and is doing, God knows what, all the time…
I do not hate him at all…I hate his actions and how he is being…
He had the balls to crawl in bed with me…but lost them, I guess, since he doesn’t have them to take care of his baby girl.
I love her to death already and she is not even here yet
I just sometimes wish that I knew why she was given to me… I’m just a teen…

I do not know all the knowledge I need to give her…