It’s the worst feeling in the world.
Knowing your baby isn’t there, that you will never hold him or her.
Knowing you might have been able to stop it.
I Miss You so much, my little angel.
I know it could be for the best.
I wasn’t ready for you, you weren’t ready.
I even had names..,
Cory Shawden for a boy.
or
Sanity Shawden for a girl.
I had a little yellow sleeper that said ‘I love my daddy.’
I think that’s what got you to change your mind. You were excited to to be a daddy, I know you said we can try again… But that little baby will always be my first… Another baby won’t take the place. Even though I want to be a mommy so badly…
But for now, my little angel, you’re in space, a soul just looking for a body.
Just remember to come back to mommy.
I will always love you. <3