I was in high school my senior year when I found out I was pregnant. It was such a shocker, I couldn’t believe it. I told my boyfriend. He was so scared. We didn’t know what to do or where to turn. We were still in school, we had a future ahead of us. Our parents would be devastated by our actions, especially his. They expected so much of him.

My first reaction was I’m keeping my baby. I can’t do this. I can’t take an innocent child’s life away, but after thinking for a while about my future and everything in my life, I brought up the courage to tell my mom about it cause I felt so confused and lost. To my surprise, she was actually so supportive. I would have never ever thought she would be. A couple of days passed and I continued to talk to my boyfriend and get his opinion and think about it for a couple of more days, but I came to the conclusion I had to have an abortion.

My sister was the greatest. She supported me through it all. She went with me to the clinic, just walking in there you feel an uneasy presence. The nurse asked me what was I coming in for and I told her an abortion. She had this look on her face I will never forget. I got into the room so they could take a ultrasound and they nurse told me I was 14 weeks. I saw my unborn child and my heart dropped. I couldn’t speak or think, I just teared. I cried that whole night into the next day, which was the day of the actual abortion .

That was the day I would never forget and the day my soul would be torn forever. Me and my mom got to the clinic. I was having second thoughts. I didn’t know what to think. I was so frightened. The took me to a room, told me to change into the gown, the doctor came in and begin with the abortion . When I woke up, I felt empty, like something had been lost and I couldn’t find it no more, and that was my baby .

To this day I have so many regrets cause I should have listen to my heart instead of being scared , so really what I’m tryna say is, Think long and hard about what you gonna do cause your past always follows into your future ……