im only just turned 18 +I have borderline personality disorder

im on strong anti depressants, and see a psychiatrist once a week… my home life is a wreck ( dads a violent alcoholic wife beater) and i have 6 months left of year 12… i have always been the over achiever dux of the skool and always receiving awards… i just found out im pregnant… im about 6-7 weeks, my situation with the babys dad is at least complicated… we were together for 3 years, but things have ended between us, and he wants me to abort it because hes not ready… im not so sure… im afraid… could i raise this baby completely on my own???? no help from family or him….. im gutted because i want to go to university and make something of my self… but there is this niggling feeeling that i should suck it up and be a mum…. any advice is apreciated… i just need something, before i end up knecking myself……

thanx