I really don’t want to have an abortion but I know there is no way to support these babies.

But the thing that makes this even harder for me than ever before is that I have been told since I was 15 that I could never have children naturally and now I get pregnant with twins! TWINS of all things and they’re Fraternal twins, not identical. I can’t believe this is happening to me. All I want to do anymore is cry. I understand that this is my choice but what about their dad? Me and him are dating but I could not keep them without him being extremely unhappy with me. I tell him continuously that I want to go through with the pregnancy but he just looks at me with this sad sad look and I know that this can not happen. I just hate feeling helpless, helpless and me do not go hand in hand.

Things just suck right now and I wish I knew what to do about it.