I’m 18 weeks, 3 days… 19 weeks on Friday!

I feel like an elephant, can’t even fit in my school shirts anymore. I can’t concentrate at school. My baby is moving around so much already. People are starting to stare and talk…Seriously, I’ve been pregnant for almost 5 months!

His daddy is still being blunt and immature. But at least he’s growing up slowly, hopefully in time for August. We are so much though, it’s unreal. We act like a married couple… Can’t see us being together for when the baby arrives, or if we do, we certainly won’t be engaged and happy. I hope if we split up, he sticks around for bubba though.

The baby moves so much, not just when it’s loud out… It’s whenever he wants to, most of the time when I’m busy. He’s growing so fast, I’m huge! Luckily he hasn’t given me any stretch marks yet though. Need to buy lots of new clothes, hardly any fit. I can tell he’s going to come early, either that or I’m further along than what they think. I’m not even 20 weeks yet and I’m bigger than my cousin who’s 28 weeks pregnant.

I miss being the baby of the family. No one’s interested in how I’m feeling, it’s all about Leo…’Oh, I got him this’ ‘Is he moving?’ ‘When’s his due date?’ ‘Can I see the scan pictures?’ I feel like no one remembers that I am still a child. Yes, my baby will be the new addition, and he’s going to be super cute…And I understand everyone is so excited. But no one has noticed I cry myself to sleep most nights. I’m behind in my schoolwork, I’m miserable, I don’t go out much. I’m depressed…And no one notices.

Please hurry up and get here, bubba. I want everything to be normal again.