i thought i was looking after myself instead all ive gained was pain
I hope all you girls read my story, know that you’re are not alone. I’m 17 years old but 6 months ago, when I was 16, I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant. I had an abortion when I was 2 months & 1/2. & my two ultrasound pictures & the sound of my […]

I hope all you girls read my story, know that you’re are not alone.

I’m 17 years old but 6 months ago, when I was 16, I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant. I had an abortion when I was 2 months & 1/2. & my two ultrasound pictures & the sound of my baby’s heartbeat in my head other than the regret are all I have left. I hit depression & had many suicidal thoughts. I felt like I was no longer women enough to have children. I see girls my age & younger having their kids & it makes me feel very bad inside, doesn’t make me feel like a woman no more. What kind of mother chooses their life over their children? That’s the question I keep asking myself constantly. I have to go around with my head up high simply because I can’t let NO ONE see me hit the ground.

See this is my story… I moved to a new state, leaving my boyfriend behind but we promised each other to stay together regardless of the distance & so we did. When I came here, I found myself interested in this guy many girls liked. Point is we only had sex once ! & I learned the hard way, that’s all it takes. Sure enough, I became pregnant. I took two pregnancy tests & both positive.! The day after we had sex, I went to Planned Parenthood to get the ”Plan B Pill” but obviously, it didn’t save me this time. I told him I was pregnant, & I never heard so many dumb excuses like the ones he told me. He told me I’m going to the army. What if I die over there? I can’t have a kid, & Imma turn gay. You can’t tell your kid his dad’s gay. He just kept telling me really childish stuff. I knew deep down inside. He didn’t know what to do because his friends would tell me. He told me to go back this summer where my boyfriend lives, have sex with him, & tell him its his baby. I refused & everytime I would tell him no, he would get very upset. He told me he didn’t want anything to do with it to get rid of it & that he hated me because I was ruining his life! He told me he would pay for the abortion, etc. There was never a day I let him see me cry!! Ever! So when we would be together, talking about it, he thought I didn’t care. He thought I took it as a joke bcuz every time he would tell me so.

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