I’m too young for this. I have to grow up and take responsibility. If I did that in the first place, I wouldn’t be here now…

My life: I am 13 years old. I have a sister who is two years younger than me. We don’t get along but I love her. I’m not the most innocent. I have a 17-year-old boyfriend. I smoke weed (cannabis), I drink, and stupidly, I have had unprotected sex several times… I am not proud of what I’ve done, who I am. I don’t think I’m pretty. I do care what people think of me, but I don’t seem that way. My parents don’t think that much of me. They know all this about me. I wish my parents could be proud of me. I wish they could love me. I wish I could think more of myself and I wish I didn’t socialize with some of the people I do, but I guess that’s part of who I am. All my life, I have been with the “wrong kind of people”.

My life now: My sister has some kind of anger issue and it changes everything. There are always fights in the house. I cry myself to sleep at night with the sound of screaming, yelling, crying and fighting. I love my parents so much, but most the time, I don’t get along with them very well… I have thought I have been pregnant twice before, but I’m stupid and have gone back and had unprotected sex. It hasn’t been long enough to know if I’m pregnant or not. I don’t want it to be. I’ve been told you don’t really see symptoms until about a month after. For me, it has only been a week since I had sex. But I need to go to the toilet every half hour, but when I pee, hardly anything comes out. Then I get that feeling that I need to go again just as I finish and it even hurts quite a lot.

I’m not really sure what to do?