Well last night, I spoke to my boyfriend about having second thoughts of having an abortion…and as you can guess it didn’t go the way I planned it to.

At first, he said do whatever you feel is right… and how I’m wishing I just left it as that. He doesn’t want me to have the baby, he thinks it would be easier if I didn’t. (Yeah for him, maybe.) The moment he said that to me, I felt my heart break. Now I have no idea what to do. I really don’t want to be a single mother with a mixed race white/Pakistani baby… So people are probably gonna look down their noses at my baby.

I have till Friday to make my decision.