well last night i spoke to my boyfriend about having second thoughts of having an abortion…and as you can guess it didnt go the way i planned it to. At first he said do whatever you feel is right… and how im wishing i just left it as that. He doesnt want me to have the baby, he thinks it would be easier if i didnt.( yeah for him maybe.) The moment he said that to me i felt my heart break. Now i have no idea what to do. I really dont want to be a single mother with a mixed race white/pakistani baby… so people are probly gona look down their noses at my baby.

 I have till friday to make my decision.