I haven’t been on here much lately, I feel like I’m neglecting you girls. Why? Because I know when I first joined with my story and with talking to people, I helped a lot of girls to calm down and see that whatever the situation was, it was not as hopeless and dark as it may seem either. If they just found out they were pregnant, they either decided to keep it, they just went through an abortion, or didn’t end up choosing because they lost their child. It’s funny, so many different situations. I am still young (well at least I think I am) yet I can relate to all of them.

I got my life somehow back on track with my last miscarriage. and I also decided ( with my doctors) that it looked like that adoption would be my only way. Or surrogacy, but that isn’t allowed where I live.

I’m doing my MBA, working, and thinking about going somewhere far, like to Kenya or Zimbabwe, and help the people there, for a month, 6 months, or maybe a year. I still haven’t made up my mind about it, but I will let you know how things will work out.

As for the guys I’ve been with, the father of the child I aborted broke down a few months ago. Everything that seemed so right to him about the abortion at that time, didn’t feel like that anymore, and we talked and cried and released balloons. I think that chapter of my life is really closed/ended now.

The father of my girls…Well, we tried to work things out, but it just didn’t go well. Not well, it didn’t go at all. And you know what I matured enough to see I do not need someone who would tell me how I feel about anything or do something that way, or would be all pissy at me just because he is in a bad mood. We are parents, we both love our girls, and we will be seeing each other on angelversarys, but that’s it. I will always love him. He is the father. Half of his heart, just like the half of mine is gone, somewhere up there in heaven, and I think this will be the thing that will always connect us.

As for my relationship status, I am single, and I am enjoying it 🙂

OK, that got pretty long, but like I said, I felt bad for not being here for so long.