To get around all that has happend to me is a major hill to climb. I dont know if i will ever get over it or if i will ever be 100 percent okay BUT i know that i am trying – one day at a time and with Gods good grace he will continue to get me through life. My friends try to comfort me and tell me its okay but none of them will ever be able to completly wrap their head around what i went through . I had an abortion at 8 weeks, with no painkillers – not by choice but because i couldnt afford them. I dont know anyone who has gone through what i went through that is why i am struggling to wrap my own head around it, but now that i found this site maybe i will find myself again because at this moment in time 6 months after everything happend i still struggle to even cope with what i had done.