So I’ve been with my boyfriend for a lil over 2 years, and lately, I dunno……. I feel like no matter how much I try, he just doesn’t or won’t get me.

We had an abortion 2 years ago and honestly, it’s been downhill since then. He’s tried to make it work but honestly, ever since the abortion, I’ve never felt the same.  I asked for a break, but he didn’t want to take a break so we tried to stick it out but… I’ve been forcing my emotions for someone who I can no longer pretend to care for. I mean I love him I truly do but I’m almost 25 and I need someone I can rely on financially, emotionally, mentally, etc.  And honestly, he’s none of those.  Great guy. He’ll give you the shirt off his back but I don’t know. I need more. I need someone I can rely on…. I dunno if I’m just being cranky, but I just hate feeling like I’m the man in the relationship. I work. I go to school. I must plan our weekends. It’s like I’m the dude.

I dunno. Lemme stop rambling. It’s a New Year, hopefully with new beginnings.