Aren’t first time Blog Posts the hardest things to write?

I’m Lisa and I’ve just started University in Wales. Not quite sure whether its the right thing for me, but £3290 is a lot of money to throw away! 

And I’ve just joined StandUpGirl…today infact! So I’m a bit unsure of what to say!

I’m not going to pretend I’m pregnant, or have been pregnant, or even know how it feels! But I have thought that I might have been, and those negative results have really got me down. 

My boyfriend and I have been together about 18 months and live together in our own flat. Recently I went on the pill, and what with missing a couple and taking them late, I’ve done my fair share of pregnancy tests!

I’ve always wanted a baby, but recently I’ve been thinking about it more and more. I’ve cried and cried over the fact that I can’t really have one…due to my studies. I’ve argued with my boyfriend over and over, and although we both want one, we’ve agreed to wait until we’re better off.

But I cant stop thinking about it. And it probably seems really selfish because I’m too young. But I can’t help how I feel. Does anyone think its weird? 

I obviously don’t know whether I can have kids, but I’ve had really irregular periods and I’m so scared that I won’t be able to have kids in the future. I don’t know what to do.

I can’t really talk to anyone about it, I think that other people will think I’m stupid.

Any thoughts?