Every day ever since that horrible day at the clinic i think about her, every day i beg god to forgive me, every day i regrate the decision i made, every day when i look at my boyfriend i hate him more than i did yesterday. does it ever go away? does the pain ever stop, do these horrible memories ever go away? i've went for councelling and still i feel angry and lonely. one day im fine the next day i feel so disgusted with my self for making such a selfish decision, i feel like im a monster, i have lost myself i don;t know who i am anymore. would this pain i feel every single day ever go away??