Every day ever since that horrible day at the clinic, I think about her.

Every day, I beg God to forgive me; every day, I regret the decision I made; every day, when I look at my boyfriend, I hate him more than I did yesterday. Does it ever go away? Does the pain ever stop? Do these horrible memories ever go away? I’ve gone for counselling and still I feel angry and lonely. One day, I’m fine. The next day, I feel so disgusted with myself for making such a selfish decision. I feel like I’m a monster. I have lost myself. I don’t know who I am anymore.

Would this pain I feel every single day ever go away??