I am 27. I am 5 weeks pregnant. It’s a little complicated. I have known this guy for a while, over a year as friends. We decided to see if we can pursue something. I had a great holiday with me. He was great to me until the end, the last week, I fell pregnant. I was on the pill. Towards the end of my visit, he wasn’t treating me with the same enthusiasm as before.

I went back home, asked him how he felt, and expressed my sentiments about how he treated me before. He did not respond but continued to call and send me cute texts and even insisted on coming to visit me for a weekend, which I planned great things.

Four days before he came, I found out I was pregnant. I knew the timing was off and I knew we were reasonable people. So I decided to wait to tell him until he came for the visit. I get a text after preparing a super good weekend –  Oh I can’t come. I have been thinking about us. I can’t have a future relationship with you. I broke down. Two days later, I told him about the pregnancy. He said the easiest thing is to terminate – I was so hurt and could not believe his insensitivity. He is 34 yrs old – has a decent job. I am financially stable and I have my Own business.

I couldn’t not imagine aborting my child. How could I from a guy I thought was great? Soon after, we had discussions and he said three things – I felt very little for you, I cannot love this child, I would terminate but if you can’t, then I will support you – But how can he when I know he didn’t want it at first? How will I look at this child when he comes to take him for visits and know his dad didn’t want him?

I was lonely. I reached out to him. He was cold. I decided to terminate. I have not done it yet, but now I look back – the anger I feel, the hurt I feel is intense. But how can I abort such a beautiful child because his father didn’t want him?

I choose to keep the child. I will deal with it – I feel so sick knowing I’m carrying a child of such a cold man but I have to now focus on me and the baby or I will miss out on the important days of growth.

I love this baby and I will be a good mother and this is the best thing that happened to me and I will not let him take it away from me: the worst is I was crazy about him and he used me and misled me.

This site has helped me. Reading all the stories, I’m no longer considering aborting – If anything, I will work harder and be more loving and live life and enjoy it. What an honor to bring a life into this world and you get to instill values and love in it.

I realize it’s heart breaking when you are alone with morning sickness but the baby will make you go on. You just have to push through.