I thought i would write you a little letter, another one. I was just doing a silly quiz thing which was 'What Should Your Parents Have Called You', and mine came back as Lexi.
It made me cry, thats what Mummy and Daddy were going to call you if you were a girl- Lexie-Mai Brown.
Ive been thinking about you so much lately baby, wondering who you would look like more- me or Daddy, what you would be doing now, what your smile would be like, things like that. I would do anything to have you back. You would 19 weeks old tomorrow (2nd May).
I miss you baby, i miss you like crazy. I would do anything to hold you in my arms and know everything will be ok.
Are you with me baby, are you watching me? I wish there was a way of knowing if you being looking after. Can you forgive me baby, will you ever be able to forgive me? I completely understand if you cant. I cant forgive myself.
Baby- i love you. Dont ever forget that! And i will never regret falling pregnant with you, having you in my belly, having you in my life. I only regret losing you, not standing up to Nanny, not being strong enough.
Mummy loves you. Daddy loves you. We hope you love us back.
Rest In Peace Baby; 15.03.08-01.07.09