So I was playing around with the preg-calc thing, put my info in, and got this: 


According to the data entered, the following applies:

Date of conception: Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Due date: Tuesday, November 25, 2008

1 week, 6 days since pregnancy started


I thought it was funny. The date of conception was the ONLY time we've ever had sex in my house.

And look where it got me.

it's weird. If i decide to go thru with all of this and end up having it, I'll be a mommy by Christmas. I spent some time with my boyfriend today and all he could keep asking me was "so what are we gonna do?". All I could do was tell him "I don't know".

I really DON'T know what  I'm gonna do. Or were. I guess I should say we, huh?

I wish I really did know what to do. Not only because I'm flipping out, but because I'd really like to be able to tell him "Ok honey, here's what were gonna do. . . ".

He's got enough stress to deal with, I don't wanna add a baby to the mix. Between his band, his job, his going out habits(he drinks, smokes, smokes pot, and does coke on the regular), and his stress level, I don't think he could handle a kid. Plus I'm a 19 year old potheadcollege kid without a job and a car. we're not the two most put together people in the world. I'm bipolar, and he's beyond crazy.

On the other hand, I've done way too much thinking. And I think I could totally handle the mommy thing. Babies are tons of work, and I've watched two older sisters, cousins, and countless friend have babies. I've helped them and enjoyed every minute of it. He seems into having a kid. I asked him if he thought we could do this, since he hasn't really said a lot about the entire situation. He said "it's not going to be easy, but we can do it".

. . . can I really do this?