I was 15 when I found out that I was pregnant.

I had just met my boyfriend a month ago and now we find out I’m pregnant. I was happy but at the same time, scared, and guilty for feeling happy because my boyfriend didn’t want to keep the baby at all. He wanted me to have an abortion. I told my mom the next day and she was sad, she cried for months, but she got used to it. My boyfriend told me to do whatever I wanted and to this day, he still holds my baby girl Miya over my head, telling me I ruined his life, he had no say, but those are only on the bad days. We have been together 1 year and 1 month. Our daughter is 4 months old, she was born 2 months early on May 14th, 3 days after I turned 16. I had to get a C-section too.

I am so very happy that I didn’t get an abortion. I don’t know what would have happened. I don’t believe in it though, taking someone else’s life is murder, and I would not suggest it. Adoption is always an option, but I would only recommend it to those who have no support and don’t wanna put life on this earth in a bad situation. I love my baby girl. She is wonderful. When I see that smile on her face, that just lights up my day. Sure, my boyfriend and I fight. Well, that’s what mostly every couple does. Yeah, even the most happily married. We aren’t married yet but we are getting there. We are engaged, I’m getting my GED and going to college next year to become a pharmacy technician. It will only take a year to a year in a half and I will be 19 or 20 by the time I have my first career and it will be wonderful. Miya will be 3 or 4, probably in preschool or so, and I will be thinking about maybe another baby, if my boyfriend and I are settled down and financially secure. We thought maybe this time, we could plan the pregnancy and maybe it would be a boy.

It is hard being a teen mom. I’m not saying it’s easy but I wouldn’t do anything different if I could. Miya is my life and I love her so very much. I just hope teens make the right decision. It isn’t always about what’s right for them. Its about what’s right for that baby, for the one you’re are carrying inside your tummy. Its the wonderful feeling, to see them smile, and the wonderful feeling to touch your tummy when they kick. I would not change it for the world.

Thank you. I hope people comment and talk to me. Thanks for listening or reading.