so iv been scrolling through the process im about to go through and im trying to get around it in my head what im about to do. tomorrow i will abort my child im 9weeks pregnent and 16years young iv never been more scared in my life today is wednesday and i found out i was pregnent on saturday. im amazed with the suport i have had from my family and my boyfriend now even tho it isnt even his child. i cry everyday because aborting goes against everything in my religion and everything iv ever really believed in. im really scared and tomorrow my mother or boyfriend cant come to the abortion.
Hi just looking for a prego buddy due in or around June 2010
I all I haven’t been in all but here is an update
I’m 27 weeks pregnant and it’s a boy!! I’m really excited and I can’t wait for my son’s arrival
short but to the point.. lol
I spent this past weekend at my soon to be in-laws. In which it was only 15 minutes away from my parents place made me un-easy, but I was able to survive. We started off the weekend by arriving at my fiance’s parents place on friday night. We settled straight into his old room and watched A Christmas Carol as the family movie for that night. Nestled in by warm blankets and surronded by the ones that I love made me feel so sure that this is what I wanted. I awoke at 3:30 am to find myself starving…so I got up and decided that it would be nice to make some food. I ate dill pickles and drank three glasses of hot chocolate. Just to wake up my soon to be mother-in-law. She came out saw me out on the couch watching A Walk To Remember and laughed at what I was eating. She then intrigued me with stories of how that was exactly what she ate when she was pregnant with my fiance,James. I couldn’t help but smile. THat’s when my little nudger nudged. James’s mom felt my baby kick for the first time that night. And her and I fell asleep together on the couch. The rest of the weekend was spent with me helping cook, beating James’s older brother that came for a visit in video games, and getting my hair braided each day by his mom. I got beyond spoiled. I am now well rested and excited for the rest of my pregnancy. i absolutely ccan’t wait. And neither can my further in-laws or my fiance. He’s so jumpy. He wants this baby out now. But I think its mostly because he don’t wanna have sex while I’m pregnant. So he’s getting frustrated. I’ve tried helping him out..but he won’t allow anything. What do I do girls??? What do I do?
hey this is my first blog , my name is lynda . im only 17 and long story short about me i have had so much things happen to me this year i never thought i could feel soo much pain hit me in one go its felt like a big fire truck smacking into me. this happen on the 3.6.09 this year. my heart felt crushed , thats the day i went to get an abortion , i know it nots right its true when people say ‘ a baby shouldnt pay for yuor mistakes ‘ . but i just had so many troubles in my life ,
my boyfriend and i meet when we wer around 15 we have always had a thing for eachother we would date on and off for like around 2 times . anyways last year on the 21.12.08 thats when we got back together it felt so real. i lost it to him even though he dosent believe me but i really lost it to him , i have liked this boy ever since high school and i felt like somewhere deep down inside me i loved him . we can not talk for months and everytime we talk again instantly we would end up liking eachother again . My Boyfriend and i dated and 2 months later or so i felt pregnant to his baby i was so excited and scared at the same time i really wanted keep him/her i didnt know how to tell my parents i was afarid , my sister ended up finding out . my family didnt support me in the decision i wanted , the descision was that i wanted to keep my baby ! but no one wanted to support me , back then my boyfriend was still a ‘ playa ‘ you can say he would text girls infrotn of me , talk to them on the phone in the other room . i would use to cry everyday i didnt know why i didnt leave him maybe because this was the boy i falling for ever since the age of 15 maybe that why i couldnt let go .
well i found out i was 4 months and 2 weeks pregnant i was so happy inside but i knew my boyfriend didnt want it even though he keep saying ‘ you can have it ‘ but i knew he didnt want to he couldnt let go of how he was like . So eventually my boyfriend stop doing all those things he was there for me and he supported me , we decided we were to young for a kid so we had an abortion that day i was so scared i tried to be strong and act like everything was ok to my boyfriend , when i went into the abortion and time to lay down , my heart was beating so fast i tried to hold back the tears but i guess it was to late to do anything about it since i already took the 3 pills they have given . After that i got off went back to the ward and rest . I went home feeling like apart of me was missing i cried myself to sleep that night , my boyfriend held my hand through it all and i was happy he changed his way . i knew he was sad he wrote on his phone ‘ 3.6.09 i love lynda a lesson in love ‘ . I cried myself to sleep for the past couple of nights i felt weird waking up and not touching my belly knowing my own baby wasnt with me anymore. I regret this alot but this experinece has made us real close and i know he really loves me till this day we are still together , our 1 year in a couple of days.
Does it make me a bad person if i regret what ive done yet im kind of pleased that this has bought me and my boyfriend together . I dont know im lost with words . All i wanna say is i miss you bubbah and if i still kept you , you world of been in this world last year around november the 27th. im sorry it makes me a bad person . hope u kan forgive me when we meet again in heaven.
i love you and ur dad loves you too .xxx
3.6.09 a day that has changed who i am inside and how i felt . you as a a person a growing baby changed my life.
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