Dear Stand Up Girl readers…

My story is mostly different from most of yours out there but I still want to share it with all the stressed girls out there.

I am 22 years old. The love of my life and I have been together for more than 6 years now. About 4 years ago, I fell pregnant. I knew my life would change dramatically. Luckily, my boyfriend stood by me, whatever decision I chose to make.

First, I thought that I’m 18, still in matric and I have been accepted into university. I can’t have this child, not now. Abortion was an option as I was living with my dad, who would never approve to let me keep the child. About two weeks later, I was at school and I suddenly felt a pain I couldn’t describe, and I immediately knew that something was wrong. That was the day i had a miscarriage, due to stress (was the doctor’s words).

I thought this has all worked out perfectly. I don’t have to go through with the abortion and i can go on living my live the way I always planned on doing but I was making a big mistake. Well here I am, 4 years later, living with even more pain in my heart than the pain I felt the day i lost my baby.

Me and my boyfriend, now my fiancé, moved in together right after I matriculated. I have a great job. I’m studying for my second degree but there is only one problem. My fiancé and I have decided to have a baby, but after more than a year, we have had no luck.

I keep thinking to myself that what would have happened if I have came out in the open with my pregnancy 4 years ago and I had not lost my baby? I find myself longing for a child of my own, even more every day. And then I read of girls who fall pregnant and don’t want the child, not thinking that there is a reason they fell pregnant at the time they did. They will never know if they will have the chance again to become a parent and I think to myself, why can’t it be me that is pregnant instead of someone whom doesn’t want the child as much as I do at the moment?

Girls, I ask of you think carefully before making the same mistake that I did. Every child is a gift from God and He has a plan for every one of those children. Don’t take away an innocent life because at some point, you will live to regret that decision.

Yours truely