when it comes to deciding what I want this time around, I would want a baby girl, but if that isnt the case so long as my baby is healthy i will be content with that. I keep praying that god will hold my hand and keep my small family close….because ive cried too many tears within the last 24hrs to bare the thought that something worse could go wrong.  though I had a dream my baby was a little girl…but a dreams a dream….it doesnt mean it will come true