if i could only

If I could only see your face baby, I would rest a while.

If I could only see your gummy toothless smile.

If I could only hold you while your tears fall,

and you wail with a deafening call.

If I could only be your mother one more time.

 

If I could only wipe your face when you have face paint made of food.

If I could only teach you how to tell the bad from the good.

If I could only hold you high and call you my special little child.

If I could only hold those little hands a while.

If I could only be your mother one more time.

 

You left before we had a life together,

you left before we had met one another.

I would give my everything and anything I could possibly do,

I would find everything I had and give it straight to you,

if I could only be your mother one more time.

why god did you take her away from me

my body wuldnt let my baby survive, how can i let my body survive now? i was going to give my life to her, now i have nothing to live for. now im more alone than i hav ever been. i miss her. so much. now im not going to be a mother, im not anything and there is no reason for me to stay alive. she was my last hope of a happy existence