i just don’t know

There’s so much hurt I feel from having 2 abortions.

The first one was in July 2010 and not long after that, my boyfriend and I decided we would have a baby then he changed his mind. I told him I was and he was at work and didn’t like it. I felt stupid that I let him do it. That was September 2010.

The first abortion was because I got raped by someone close to me and didn’t expect that to happen. The second one was his…and he just had… 1st baby September 30, 2010, I kept the 2 ultrasound pics to remind me that I wish I could have had a beautiful tiny baby in me 8 months I would have been or I would have had a lil one already.

I live with him now. I look at his baby girl and it breaks my heart.