So it’s July 18, yeah? And I still have no clue if I’m pregnant or not. I’ve had 2 signs of possibly being pregnant and thats it, 1- missing my period and 2- my breasts are a little sensitive. It’s been well over a month and I haven’t done one thing to figure out what the answer is — well I mean I’ve done research, but haven’t gotten tested.

I’m scared – me and Bailey are scared. He said if I am he’ll start to work and only go to playing one sport. I told him he doesn’t need to go to one sport but he keeps telling me has to. I’m scared, but both in a good and bad way. The good way: I’ve never had someone this close to me be willing to give up a sport or anything for that matter for me, well technically it’s not for me, it’s for the possible baby that could be on the way. The bad way: I could be pregnant and I’m so scared my parents will disown me, no joke. I know people say, “Oh they wont disown you sweetie, they’re just going to be disappointed and then they’ll get over the shock and then they’ll be supportive,” but with my luck, they could disown me!

I dunno what I’m gonna do, and when school starts, I’m gonna be screwed because all I can think of is keeping the baby vs adoption, the baby, my life and future, etc. It’s all going down hill. And I feel so alone, even though I have you ladies and Bailey to support me. I dunno what I’d do if I didn’t have Bailey, he’s the love of my life. My mom says it’s just puppy love, but I don’t think it is; I think it’s the real deal, even though I’m Catholic and he’s Mormon which will be a big deal for when the baby comes if we decide to keep it what we’re going to baptize him/her.

Oh and right now I am 5 weeks and 2 days pregnant (July 18).

Thanks ladies so much.

-Lexi