I found out I was expecting about 12 weeks ago. And like most wonderful girls out there, I am going to be a single mom but this time it’s by choice… I know that my baby deserves a better father than the sperm donor… Sadly it was too late for me to realize it.

He did want me to have an abortion but I felt strongly against it. I told him to get a life and that I was better than that for him to tell me what to do with my own baby, how dare he. No man has a right to take away your baby… Then, when he realized he was wrong for saying what he said, he decided to support me and my decision to keep it. But I’m not sure I want someone who wanted my baby dead in the first place to father my baby… Is that selfish of me ???? I have grown to love my baby so much. I became so overprotective. I don’t want anyone to hurt my baby and I feel like he wants to help but he can’t give me what I know my baby deserves… I really don’t want him to have anything to do with my child. Is that wrong of me??? Is it wrong of me to have such high expectations of someone who will be caring for my baby??? I feel like he isn’t good enough for my child…

I love my baby so much, I just want what’s best. And the fact that he denied and wanted my baby dead in the first place just makes me feel like I don’t want him near my child.