I just turned 19 a few months ago and my mother just had a baby, a beautiful little girl, that I help take care of as if she were my own. I’ve decided to help my mother and be a full-time babysitter while she goes to work so she can support the baby, my younger brother, and sadly, me.

About 3 weeks ago, I found out I was pregnant, my fiancée is very happy but I’m lost and confused. My fiancée may be ready since he is 26 but I am far from ready. How will I help my mother and support my baby? I know my fiancée can work but he can only work so much. I won’t be able to work since I’ll be babysitting and I can’t ask my mother to pay me the point of me watching the baby was so she didn’t need to worry about another expense. Also, how am I going to deal with my little sister while I’m pregnant? I know many do this when they have their second child: but they’ve dealt with pregnancy at least once. Whereas I haven’t, so I don’t know how to react to my changing body. How will I help when I can barely help myself when I’m puking and dizzy?

I can’t even tell my mother yet for fear she might tell me that she wants me to have an abortion. The only things that relieve me is that I at least have prenatal care and my first prenatal appointment is this coming Thursday and my fiancée is very supportive. I hope I can make the right decision for me and my baby…