It’s almost been a year since I terminated my baby. Tears are filling up in my eyes right now. it would’ve been my baby’s first Christmas. I would’ve been buying them presents and loving them. Instead, I am still mourning their loss and still loving them.

I have been trying to get pregnant but nothing seems to be working 🙁 Why can’t I get pregnant now? I just want him or her back. They were almost four months and I killed them. That’s like a little body with a heartbeat and a part of a brain. How could I do it? I don’t want to be alive anymore. People are going to judge you either way. It’s not worth having an abortion.