I’m a 20-year-old graduating college student. My documents for migrating to the US are in process.

One night, I got a chance to tell my whole family that I’m 4 months pregnant. I actually knew it before, but I didn’t just tell them right away because I don’t have a job so what will happen to my studies? Who will pay my monthly tuition fee? Who will give me an allowance weekly? Who will support me with those financial needs? That was the FIRST thing that came to my mind. The SECOND thing that came to my mind was to have an abortion right away, taking abortion meds, but I came to the point where I didn’t want to do it even though I already bought abortion meds for P3,000 /$300.

As time went by, I noticed that my tummy was getting bigger and bigger and I couldn’t hide it anymore. Some people were telling me that I’m getting big and I just ignored them as I couldn’t tell them that I’m pregnant since my family didn’t know about it.

My boyfriend and I decided to tell them that I’m pregnant and I thought telling them my situation would make me feel okay, comfortable, less worried. But after telling them, all I can feel is EMPTINESS and nothing more. I thought they would understand me since I’ll be graduating in college, but all I can feel is their REGRET, that I should be more careful because I have ambitions in life and now I’ll be graduating in college, I should not do that because of my petition. But my point is its not the END of my life, its actually the START… I can still prove to them that I can still STAND UP on my own. My boyfriend is always here to support all my needs.

Since I told them that I’m pregnant, I cry every night and my relationship with my family is not doing good right now. Still hoping that everything will be okay.

You know what guys, here in Philippines, its really a big deal when you got pregnant at the wrong age like me. Your family will make you suffer for your mistake.

The first story of my being pregnant.