Hi, I am 17 years old and 7, almost 8 months pregnant. I am so in love with my boyfriend of 2 years but he has a lot of problems such as he is in jail as of right now he has been there for 6 almost 7 months.

At times, I feel really lonely and hopeless because he hasn’t gone to court yet. He is going soon in some weeks to see when he is coming home. I miss him so much. I got him a lawyer and everything. His lawyer says he will be home really soon because he was arrested without a warrant and was searched, him and his house, without a search warrant. But now, we just figured out he has a DUI in another county but they didn’t give him nor his friends a breath test or take them to jail when it happened. It’s been a year since that happened and now, they are trying to charge him with that too. On top of that, in the last 2 years, I have lost my dad (died of cancer), my grandmother, and grandfather and I don’t want to lose him too.

I try to stay positive but it’s hard when I graduate May 23 and don’t know if he will be home by then and baby is due June 19 and my 18th birthday is July 14. I want him to be there and I am scared he won’t! I feel so alone. I look around and see all mothers with their baby’s dad and I don’t mean to but I am jealous of that. I want and miss that and want that for my little girl Lilyana. All my friends don’t even come around much anymore unless they need something. I use to be the fun party girl that everyone loved to hang around and now I am just alone.

I don’t know what to do with myself. Things are also even more hard because I am African American and my boyfriend is Hispanic American and a lot of people at my school thinks that is not right but my mom and my family and his family love it and don’t mind but its just hard when you have people looking down on you all the time.