Hello everyone, well, I’m 16 and about 12 months ago, I fell pregnant by a boy I was seeing. When I found out, I was so happy but so scared of what to do, what to tell my parents… But I knew I had to and they were OK with it but disappointed in me. But 9 months ago was also the worst time ever for me because I did something that I know I will never do again. I had an abortion.

At the time, I was feelin really weird felt like it wasn’t really happening and everyone was telling me it was the best thing to do at my age. The boy said he would never be able to be there except for giving me money because he was too young. He was 19, a lot older than I was, and I was still in school. He hurt me a lot to be saying that. It was not what I wanted to hear.

So I became to think that it was the best thing to do and when the day came, I was so scared it was horrible. When I came out, I sat on the bed and cried into my arms. I couldn’t believe what I had just done but it was too late to do anything. The whole time, I could of said something but I felt like I couldn’t, like no one would listen to what I wanted or what I thought. I tried to talk to him after but he didn’t wanna listen. He just said shhh, it will be OK and that’s it. He neva even came round to see how I was!! The whole of my summer holiday, I had to put on a brave face because I didn’t want to tell no one bout what I had been through so I couldn’t show how I felt which was hard and painful coz I wanted to sit and cry.

Its been 12 months and I’m still finding it really hard most of the time, I just sit and cry or I’m just walking round really annoyed and angry, specially when I see other girls the same age doing OK for themselves. Hope that didn’t sound bad the way I said that because I think you girls are brilliant and I wish everyone the best of luck with their pregnancies. I could of done the same if I had only done what I wanted and listened to myself, not everyone else and my mom’s mate who had done the same at my age and said it would be the best thing to do. But what can I do now…. nothing. Just help other people who are thinking about abortion and there is one thing I will say and that’s please, don’t do it because its really hard and upsetting unless it is what you really want to do. Please never let anyone tell you what’s best because only you can do what you want, no one can make you. There is always a way round, no mater what.

It’s taken the boy 12 months to talk about it and that was only once and its too late now. I needed to speak to him before. He now wishes he hadn’t made me go through it. Well, it’s too late too

If there is anyone who would like to chat, it would be lovely because I’ve never spoken out to anyone about what I went though because I’ve not had anyone who knows what its like and understands. That’s what makes it a lot harder, not talking about it to anyone because you keep it all trapped up and it will bubble away at you and I know that well.

Thank you for reading my story