On November 1 2008, I went to the abortion clinic to end my pregnancy. 🙁

I was so happy when I found out that I was pregnant but yet at the same time, I knew my boyfriend was gunna say abortion. I was so upset. It hurt me so bad to know that he didn’t want to keep it. He was trying to explain to me our financial situation and that we just can’t do it right now. And I mean trust me, I understand but still, it hurts. I didn’t want to kill my innocent child. It didn’t do anything wrong. I loved it already. I was so attached. Especially because since I was 15, I thought that having a baby would never happen to me. But It did.

I went to the place and I waited several hours. I saw the sonogram, my baby was so small, so incredible. Then I took a painkiller. They told me it would help with the pain. They told me that it wouldn’t hurt so bad. But oh my God did they lie. It was the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my life. I couldn’t believe it. I was crying the moment they hooked me up to the machine. It started sucking, and I felt my baby come out of me. I was crying so bad I couldn’t breathe.

My boyfriend was right there by my side, holding my hand, and rubbing my shoulder but inside, I felt like he couldn’t wait till it was dead.

It was the worst experience of my life. I hated it. I can’t believe I actually did it.

I’m on birth control now but I’ll say right now that if I happen to get pregnant again, I will never have an abortion again. I will keep my baby, no matter the situation.