It has been 4 days since my abortion and I think I may be doing better…..

I have started to see someone I can talk to about everything I am feeling… I have also found out that one of my closest friends had an abortion done a few months ago, making her another person I can talk to about things… She has given me some great advice which is really working… I had to go back on my medications due to doing things to myself, but once again, I have a friend to talk to now… I’m still not getting too much sleep, the pictures are still haunting me like you wouldn’t believe… I have also found out that my church has a group for women who have gone through the same thing…. I still wish I could turn back time and change everything… I regret my decision and it makes my day so much hard to go through… I keep asking myself the famous “what if” question… Like “What if I had the baby would it have made my life better, or did I do the right thing?”  I hope there will be some day soon when I can have a peaceful day to relax… I really need it soon, before I drive myself crazy… I have my daughter for the weekend, which I hoping it will help with my mode a little…

But I am absolutely doing better…