Good day all

I was 17 when it all happened. I dated someone who I thought was an amazing guy. We dated for 7 months and in the 5th month, I fell pregnant. We tried for 5 months and nothing happened. When I told him that I am pregnant, he said it was not his and that I should have an abortion. My dad and my then-boyfriend forced me to have an abortion. I actually did not know I had a choice to say no. Today, I know that I can say no. For years afterwards, I blamed myself; calling myself a killer and a murderer. And today, I am better. I always think about what the little one would have looked like.

I believe in my heart it would have been a boy.