Sometimes don’t you wish that you had the ability to travel back in time and change things that have happened in the past? – I know there are times that I have felt that way. Beating yourself up emotionally over the past won’t help. Unfortunately it is impossible for you to go back and undo your abortion. However it sounds like you are still in pain from the experience. Perhaps you should look into Project Rachel or other post abortion counseling which might help you to deal with some of the pain from your experience. You might want to talk to Lisa, with this site. She may be able to help you deal with the guilt and grief. I think that she recommends a book called Forgiven and Set Free as well. I have not had to cope with the pain from an abortion, but I am here to listen and help if I can.
Kate