I was 9 weeks when I had gotten an abortion.

I had gotten a abortion because my boyfriend wasn’t ready to have a kid. But then after I had done it, I realized that I shouldn’t of done it. I regret it every day of my life. I wish I didn’t do it but I know that I cant change what I did. But I will live with this pain for the rest of my life and I don’t know how to deal with this. I’m still with him and all we do is fight because I blame him for it but he says it was for the better but I think that if I kept it, I would of been in a better spot than I am now. My mother didn’t think i should of gotten it so she kicked me out before I even went to go get it done. After it was done, no one in my family wanted to talk to me so I had to go live with my friends which was hard to do. Now I am living with my sister till my boyfriend can find us a place. I have no job, no car license.

I just can’t do it.