so… I had what felt like a urinary tract infection and a yeast infection that was bothering the hell outta me so I asked my mom to set up an appointment with my gynecologist. My gynecologist was on vacation so I went to the stand-in doctor. I was stupid and I had been having unprotected sex with my boyfriend of a year and 2 months. This was not the first time that I had a UTI and yeast infection at the same time so I asked the doctor's assistant to test me for STD's.  I do the urine sample and blah blah blah…

The doctor comes into the room and asks me, "So what kind of contraception are you using?" and I tell him "None. I'm allergic to latex… i brought the non-latex condoms but it didn't feel the same so I didn't push my boyfriend to use them…" The doctor said, "Well, it's not working for you because your pregnancy test just turned positive."

I was shocked. Of all the times that I worried that I might be pregnant, the time that I don't worry I get caught by surprise. I said, "Your lyin'!" And the doctor replied, "No, I'm not. I'm serious." He goes on to get the ultrasound to see how far along I am and does some blood work and he tells me to call back the next day. I did the preg calculator on this site to estimate about how far along I am and it seemed very accurate to say that I am 11 days pregnant.

SO… I talked to my boyfriend about it face to face the day I went to the doctor. He literally stop dead in his tracks (we were walking and talking) and he said, "WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO??" he ask me this a good 5 times until i yelled at him "I DON'T KNOW!!!"

here's my issue:

My boyfriend wants me to have an abortion. Unfortunately ther's a stigma in his family that all the kids are born to single families. His father is extremely Jamaican (No disrespect–my mother is Jamaican too) and my boyfriend highly doubts that his father would let him stay with me or see me if he told him that I'm pregnant. On the other hand, I was never to cool with the whole abortion idea and I'd rather keep the baby, despite the difficult circumstances that he/she would be born into. I personally feel like if it's God's will, he will let my baby have two parents. At the same time, I have aspirations for a dance career and he wants to be in the NBA. Obviously, if I had this baby, my dreams would have to be put on hold and a lot of things would have to be sacrificed, but it could work.

All I really want is to be able to stay with my boyfriend and reject abortion as an option. I would do an adoption but any kid that I carry for nine months is gonna live with me– no ifs, ands, buts, or maybes.


PS. I spoke to my mom about it, my dad doesn't know, and my little sister wants to be an aunt… not that they matter much in my decision.

PSS. I am 16 and my boyfriend is 16. We are juniors in high school.