Not The Mothering Type

Hello Hello Hello Standupgirl-ians. Here I am taking the afternoon off from parenthood.

My Ball of Energy is with her Nana for the day, which I suspect won’t actually be the full day since my mother can’t handle Miss Bouncy Pants for that long. (She’s called five times since 9:00) Don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful for my mother even suggesting taking my daughter for any length of time. Truth be told, my mother was never the “mothering” type. My sister and I were raised by a nanny while my mother enjoyed outings with the girls. So, I am thankful she is taking an interest in my daughter.

Anyone out there in SUG world have a similar story? I’d be interested.

my desision

When I was 18, I found out that I was two months pregnant.

At first, it didn’t hit me that I was no longer just supporting myself, I had to bring a child up in the world. I was with the baby’s dad for two years. I thought I was in love, When he found out, he pressured me into getting an abortion. He said that if I loved him, I would do that for him. He even went to my parents and talked to them to see if they would support his decision and of course, they thought it would be best. I ended up getting it done, and to this day I regret my decision of going through with it and giving up my baby. My boyfriend left me at 3 months pregnant and so I felt like I had nobody. I went back to school and found an amazing guy who understands me and treats me well. He agrees that one day, I will have another try at being a mom.

I was not ready and I try to be strong, but there are times that I just sit down and cry my eyes out, but I know one day, I will get to see my baby…

Momma loves you, baby.

what should i do?

So I just found out I’m pregnant like 2 days ago and it’s stressing me out.

I hate when people get abortions because I feel like why should you pay for your child to be murdered? But now, that is a choice I might have to make. Me and the father are trying to decide what would be best: keep the baby or abort. The reason we have to do this is because he is a lot older than me and we are scared that if we keep it, then my mom will send him to jail. I really don’t know what to do. I feel like this is one of the hardest things I have ever had to face.

I need suggestions, people. Please help me.

R.I.P~Carson Maire Dawn~

On Friday afternoon, I was in a car accident that cost me my unborn baby’s life.

The seatbelt plus airbags pushing on my stomach cost me my baby girl. 09/24/2010 was the day you were taking from me too early. You were only 6 months in my stomach. My body hurts and pains for you. Carson, Mommy misses you soooooo much. Wish you were still here with me. Can’t believe you’re gone already. You’ll be missed dearly and I will never forget you ever. Carson Maire Dawn, you’re in my heart always and forever. God take care of my baby girl for me.

09/24/10 R.I.P CARSON MARIE DAWN!!!:(

Made my choice

I finally made my choice. I am going to give my baby up for adoption.

I know it’s going to be hard, but I know that if I love this baby, then I can do this for them because I know that I can’t take care of it. I know that the choice I am going to make is going to be hard, but I have to do it not for me but it because I will not be able to take care of it. It will be hard if it’s a girl because I’ve always wanted a baby girl.

Thanks for reading!

breastfeeding!

OK. so I’m expecting my son on December 5th.

I’ve looked through about every breastfeeding advice listing there is. All I’ve noticed is that it talks about how to, and why you should. I know that it’s much healthier for my son, but I’m afraid it might hurt, or just feel a bit weird… Breastfeeding him would be a lot cheaper as well. How much does formula cost a month for a newborn, cuz I’m sure they go through a lot sometimes & I’ve heard that when your milk comes in, it hurts to lay on your back. Even touching your breasts will make you want to cry… Will this affect breastfeeding him if I decide to? I think I’m more afraid of pain and sensitivity than anything. I know a lot of people breastfeed.

If there are any suggestions, advice, or comments, would you mind helping me out a bit, and letting me know more about it besides the fact that it’s healthier for the baby? I want to know what effect it will have on me.