So here’s my story–

In the early part of June, I went on vacation with my boyfriend, Bailey, and his fa  mily and a couple other families to a place in Utah called Lake Powell. We had a blast, we were cautious about what we did even though we’ve never been sexually active and we don’t plan to be soon either. But, on June 11 the ride home from Lake Powell we got a little crazy, he put his fingers me and i was touching him as well.

The day we got back I was supposed to start my period, but guess what? Its about 3 weeks later and I missed my period. Me and Bailey are both scared we can’t remember if he touched himself while he was ejaculating and then touching me after. I researched on the web that there’s a slight chance you could get pregnant but with my luck I could be pregnant right this second.

I’m turning 14 in August, I start high school in August also and there’s a possibility of me being pregnant. Great, now what? Bailey tells me to live life until we finally figure out the answer. I don’t dare go to Target and get a pregnancy because I’m scared of what people will think when they see me go to the check out stand with a pregnancy test in hand. 

I’ve been getting slight pain in my back like period cramps, but I haven’t gotten any bleeding, I’m sleeping till almost noon everyday and I have a feeling my mom has some sort of idea that there’s a possibility that I could be pregnant. 

I took the pregnancy calculator on here and I think I am pregnant. Because the day I conceived was June 11, and that was the day we left Lake Powell and when things got crazy. If I am, I’m 3 weeks and 2 days along. The due date is March 3, 2011.

On Friday, July 1, 2010 I hung out with Bailey. I told him about all the research that I have done on the web and that there’s a possibility I could be pregnant. My periods have always been irregular, but I’ve never gone this long without one even though I know girls my age miss periods every so often, but I think I’m pregnant. 

And I have no clue how to tell my parents, how my relatives will accept me and how God will accept me now. I’m going to be a disgrace to my parents, I snuck behind their backs doing stuff a 13 year old girl shouldn’t be doing.

Even though I haven’t been having morning sickness or dizziness, I still don’t know what to think, I some nights I can’t sleep at night but when I fall asleep it’s around 2 and I sleep until noon almost everyday, and all I can think about is me and Bailey’s future, i might be pregnant and I have no clue what the hell I’m supposed to do.

One thing’s for sure, I’m not keeping the baby and I’m not a believer in abortion, so my only choice? Adoption. 

I’m about to step into Hell.

Oh boy. If I am, God please send me a sign and help me through this journey of this pregnancy.