About 5 months ago before I started college I found out I was pregnant, I was only 16. I didn't know what to do, I was so lost and confused.

I wasn't sure what I really wanted. I had always loved the fact of having a baby, having a family that I never really had, as I've never been close to my family. I mean now, me and my boyfriend talk about how much we'd love to be a family. when I found out I was in shock, I was so scared. I had told my boyfriend and he said it would be the right thing to abort it, as he was going to uni and wouldn't be there as much as he would like. I guess he had a point, my mum was a lone parent and she struggled. I didn't want that, I wanted the best for my child. I felt my mum wanted me to abort the child but she never said anything. I didn't want to do it at all, I felt I was being selfish, I was having sleepless night day after day at the thought of abortion, but because I loved my family I decided to do it, but now I realize that it was the wrong decision, I'm ashamed of my self from what I did. I've had counseling sessions, and nothing seams to be working. I keep reading online of how bad my choice was, I just want my baby back. I'm completely broken, I'm a new person. I just want the old me back, all these stories saying they started to forget and forgive after a year. I don't want to wait that long, I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to, every time I bring it up with my boyfriend he just ignores it. I sometimes have suicidal thoughts, I feel that guilty.  My family and boyfriend are scared for me.I don't know what to do, what else can I do?

Please could you share this as well, it would be nice to know it could help someone else as these stories have helped me.

Thank you for your time, it means so much.

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  1. Shay02

I'm always here if you want to talk or vent. I know how hard it is but the most you can do now is remember your baby and grieve, cry, yell, scream and try not to feel so guilty. I can't say it'll get easier but they're lots of people on here you...

I'm always here if you want to talk or vent. I know how hard it is but the most you can do now is remember your baby and grieve, cry, yell, scream and try not to feel so guilty. I can't say it'll get easier but they're lots of people on here you can relate to and talk with that can help.

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  1. dorothyhouston

I am so sorry about what you have gone through. I am not certified as a counsellor as of yet, but if you feel you need to talk to someone about what you're going through, I am here. You can email me at xxcherriblossomxx@gmail.com.
I will be...

I am so sorry about what you have gone through. I am not certified as a counsellor as of yet, but if you feel you need to talk to someone about what you're going through, I am here. You can email me at xxcherriblossomxx@gmail.com.
I will be going to school and plan to be a Pregnancy Counsellor - helping those who have made the choice to abort, or adopt or raise. Help them cope with the decisions they made, etc.
Please, if you need someone to talk to, e-mail me asap! I want to help you through this!

My name is Dorothy Houston. I was 19 when I had my daughter and I was a single mom for a couple months. It was hard, but I managed. I cannot imagine what you're going through right now. I myself have had three miscarriages and they broke me apart...what you're going through is something you can get help with. I know you said you'd spoken to counsellors before, but maybe having someone closer to your age and understanding, might be a better fit?

I hope you e-mail me. If you do, just put in your name and remind me of who you are, so that I can respond with knowledge on the subject.
I pray for you and your heart, to heal.
God Bless you.

Dorothy

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  1. Jen

Lara, I can only imagine the pain you're feeling. Please don't beat yourself up. That doesn't solve anything. Many women who have gone through what you're suffering have found great comfort and healing in Rachel's Vineyard retreats, which can...

Lara, I can only imagine the pain you're feeling. Please don't beat yourself up. That doesn't solve anything. Many women who have gone through what you're suffering have found great comfort and healing in Rachel's Vineyard retreats, which can be found around the country. They help women come to terms with their loss, and begin to find healing and joy.

In the meantime, please know you will be in my prayers.
God Bless You!

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  1. melissa

I really don't know how it feels to have gone through what you have gone trough. Just my reading you story it really breaks my heart. Hope that things get better. And for you boyfriend :well I think that If he really loved you he would talk to...

I really don't know how it feels to have gone through what you have gone trough. Just my reading you story it really breaks my heart. Hope that things get better. And for you boyfriend :well I think that If he really loved you he would talk to you about it. Because if you don't talk about how you feel, you would feel worse.

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  1. Valetta Moore

You are sadly mistaken if you think this guy is worth all the trouble. You need to stay in school, they have the RU486 pill now and it's convenient. But you need to stay focus, you sound like a smart lady, why let this smirk run you down,...

You are sadly mistaken if you think this guy is worth all the trouble. You need to stay in school, they have the RU486 pill now and it's convenient. But you need to stay focus, you sound like a smart lady, why let this smirk run you down, there'll be plenty of time for children finish your education.

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  1. The Chosen Elect

Be Happy, God gave you a chance to be redeemed, the next time you get pregnant, plan on being married and prepared for a child, I know it's hard for you to believe but did you know that women that have children out of wedlock are cursing...

Be Happy, God gave you a chance to be redeemed, the next time you get pregnant, plan on being married and prepared for a child, I know it's hard for you to believe but did you know that women that have children out of wedlock are cursing themselves and sometimes the child. I wrote of my experience having an abortion and it tied in with the Bible. God showed me where those that oppose women choices are the Antichrist. Listen it's the truth. I wrote a book titled: Betrayal of a Nation, one book led to another entitled. Forbidden fruit. Advising women of all the wrong reasons to have a baby. The books are offered through Trafford Publishing. Please read them you will fill much better. I had to live through hell to write these books, but it's to glorify God

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  1. karuna jaiswal

my name is karuna jaiswal,i am 17 years old,i had sex with my boyfriend 15 days before, and now i am not having periods, is this a symtoms of pregnancy.......

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  1. noonesgirl19

First off... It wasnt their choice to make... it wasnt even nice for them to suggest that and i kno that it lives with u all the time and im so sorry that u have to deal with that... but u will have another chance and by then u will hopefully...

First off... It wasnt their choice to make... it wasnt even nice for them to suggest that and i kno that it lives with u all the time and im so sorry that u have to deal with that... but u will have another chance and by then u will hopefully make the right one, I hope things get better for u

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