I had an abortion a few months ago and I can relate to many of the girls/women on here. I'm 17 years old and got pregnant for a guy that's in his 20's. A combination of irresponsibility and plain bad luck caused the pregnancy. When we found out that I was pregnant we initially decided that I would get an abortion, despite our religious beliefs against it. But as time went on I realized that it was the wrong decision, and that God could get me through the situation if I decided to have the baby. From that moment, I had made a plan for my life that would accommodate me raising my child and completing high school and going to university. I knew it would be hard but I also knew that it was possible. I hadn't yet told anyone in my family because I was indecisive about my decision, and I knew that if I told them that they wouldn't let me have the abortion. I tried to seek guidance from friends and many of them told me that I should keep the baby. In the end I listened to my partner, and when I was 8 weeks pregnant we went together and I had the abortion.

I thought I would've been okay after I did it, but I've kind of been a mess ever since. I still haven't told my family because I'm scared of what they'd say. So I've been handling the situation by internalizing it. I can't talk to my friends about it because they don't understand, neither do I think that they really care. I think they think that I should get over it and move on because I made the choice to abort the child. I also can't talk to my partner about it because he wants to hear nothing of the subject.

A day or two after the abortion I spent a lot of my time crying. I cried at the sight of a baby, when I saw young mothers, and sometimes just at the thought of what happened. It's been about 4 months since that, and I cry about once a week. I always imagine what my baby would have looked like, the type of life it would've had, and whether I would have regretted having it.

To any young girl that's pregnant, do what YOU believe is right. Ultimately, you have to live with the consequences of your decision, For any of you, like me, who have Christian values, take this as a lesson learnt, and live the life that God wants you to live. I wish everyone that reads this the best of luck.

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  1. renee

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I wish you had some close friend to talk with, and I want to be here for you as I can. Here are a few resources you could look in to: http://www.RachelsVineyard.org, http://www.saveone.org,

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  1. musiclover    renee

Thanks so much for your concern. I haven't checked my account in a while, and after crying my eyes out the entire day, I decided to see if I got any replies. I'll definitely take a look at those other websites, because it's comforting to know...

Thanks so much for your concern. I haven't checked my account in a while, and after crying my eyes out the entire day, I decided to see if I got any replies. I'll definitely take a look at those other websites, because it's comforting to know that other people have gone through what I'm going through. I think it's great that you're reaching out to someone you don't know, and I'm always open to talking. Thanks again, Rachael.

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  1. cchammond48

I can feel for you, I had an abortion when I was 19 and it was really hard, didn't know God then but it was what my family wanted and I went along with it. It is really hard but I learned that if I asked God for forgiveness and just kept one...

I can feel for you, I had an abortion when I was 19 and it was really hard, didn't know God then but it was what my family wanted and I went along with it. It is really hard but I learned that if I asked God for forgiveness and just kept one foot going in front of the other I was ok, somedays better than others and some worse. I know how you feel and all I can say is that it will be ok and your right that you need to listen to your heart and go from there. Know that God is there for you right now and you can talk to Him at anytime.

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  1. musiclover

Thanks so much for your concern. I haven't checked my account in a while, and after crying my eyes out the entire day, I decided to see if I got any replies. I'll definitely take a look at those other websites, because it's comforting to know...

Thanks so much for your concern. I haven't checked my account in a while, and after crying my eyes out the entire day, I decided to see if I got any replies. I'll definitely take a look at those other websites, because it's comforting to know that other people have gone through what I'm going through. I think it's great that you're reaching out to someone you don't know, and I'm always open to talking. Thanks again, Rachael.

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