Trust is something people abuse and take for granted every single day. I, like everyone else, thought that you could trust practically anybody as long as you've known them for a while, that's all it takes right?. Give them a year or two, a few months, a few weeks maybe? It doesn't really matter cause that's enough to trust them. You think you've known someone for so long only to find out that you were off this whole time. I found out the hard way that you can't really trust anybody. I trusted someone I knew for ten years. We've known eachother since we were 4 years old. He was shy, sweet, kind, everything that would discribe a nice, trustworthy guy, but I was wrong. I let my guard down because I thought I knew him after all those years in grade school, but I didn't. I found out his true nature that terrible afternoon when I was 14, an afternoon I would like to earase from my mind forever, an afternoon I am forced to live with for the rest of my life. Trusting him was the biggest mistake of my life and I am still paying for it today. I tried to forget my past, I tried to bury it in the deepest, darkest part of my mind, but it came back and not it' plaging my every footsteps. The boy who ruined my life, who made me hate myself, who made me have nightmares for years is now dating one of my closest friends and I have to pretend like everything's ok, like nothing's wrong. It's the punishment I get for trying to runaway from my mistakes. If I could go back in time, I would go back and I would tell myself not to trust him, to stay away, but I can't. I can't change the past, it's a part of who I am now. I'm getting better everyday, leaning to trust people again. There's even a guy in the picture now, well I'm hoping he's going to be an official part of the picture and I feel great about it. The memories still come back to hunt me when I see or hear something that reminds m of that terrible day, but it's not as bad as before. I succeded in confinding to my mother and, later, to one of my best friends. I know that there's worse out there, but that doesn't stop the pain. All I can do now is hope and try to look at the rest of my life in a positive way. Trust is something very important, very delicate, I just hope you don't take it for granted like I do. Don't give it to just anyone, give it only to those who really deserve it. I would like to have a chance like you do, but I'm afraid that chance is long gone. So don't waste it ok? For me?
- Written by fire