"Grown-ups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them." Antoine de Saint-Exupery, "The Little Prince", 1943 French writer (1900 - 1944)
It feels like just a few days ago I was fretting over how to tell everyone I was pregnant. When I first found out I panicked. I mean how could I not? I was 18 living in a strange city about 300 miles away from any family. It is weird, because now I look back and I wonder, "What in the world?" Im not a religious nut, but I do believe in God. I don't know if I would have been able to get through everything if I didn't.
It's one of the hardest things telling the people who you look up to you are pregnant. It is even harder to tell someone who you want to be proud of you. I never really understood why my sister tried to hide her first pregnancy from our mom; at least I didn't till I became pregnant. Then everything changed. I felt like I had done something wrong; that I needed to hide. Looking back I realize that I was scared. I could barely take care of myself, let alone a little one.
Now that little one is six almost seven months old and learning to crawl. She spends most of her time laughing and trying to get into things. I wouldn't change it for the world.
When you are pregnant things can seem out of your control, even when you are not pregnant they seem out of control. So take my advice, step back, take a deep breath, and imagine the smile on your future son or daughters face. Try to imagine a love so strong you wouldn't believe it existed. Trust me. When and if you decide to have that little one, you will be taken aback by how strong it is.