I just though that I would share my story in a blog and that it may help or influence some other teen mothers or teens trying to become a teen mother. When I was fifteen years old I was at home on my couch when my mother had asked me if I had my period. Which made me start to think and then I realized that I hadn't. My mom took me to the doctor for numerous reasons and come to find out I was pregnant . I didn't know what to think or what to do. There was just an empty feeling in my stomach. My mother began to cry but for some reason I couldn't. All I could think about was that I was going to be a mother, and I was going to be resposible for someone else's life. I followed up with the OBGYN and found out that I was almost three months pregnant. All of a sudden I went from scared and dissapointed to excited. I began to think on what I would name my child and if it was going to be a boy or a girl and how I was going to break it to my babys father. I hadn't talked to my babys father since the night that I conceived my baby. Then come to find out he was in jail, so I had no way of contacting him what so ever. Time came to pass and I met a wonderful guy and he knew I was pregnant and was going to step up to the plate and be there for me and my child. Things were going great, I went to the baby doctor and found out that my baby was a girl! I was kind of dissapointed but I didn't really care as long as I knew she was healthy. Then my beautiful baby girl was born! I had a rough labor and things didn't go as planned but she was healthy and that was all that mattered to me. My boyfriend the one I mentioned earlier was there with me the whole time, he cried when she was born, and he treated her just like she was his. Then my babies father got out of jail and I let him know about the baby.. we tried to work things out and he said he wanted to be in her life. So I broke up with my boyfriend and let him step in. He came to see my baby girl when she was 4 months old, he hugged her, and kissed her, and loved on and it melted my heart. But, things didn't work out between me and him about a week later so he decides to break up with me and deny our beautiful daughter. It was fine with me at the time because I missed my ex anyways he treated me a lot better. But, at the same time I wanted what was best for my daughter and I thought she needed her father and I didn't know what exactly was best for her at the time. But, I got back with my ex and he stood by my side for the longest time. Then me and him broke things off and it was just me and my baby girl out there to fend for ourselves! And here we are today, i'm 17 years old with no job, still in school, no emotional or financial support from anyone.. and it's the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. I love my daughter so much and I wouldn't take her back for the world, shes my strength and my rock. She is what keeps me going. But, at the same time my life is in a rut, i'm not getting to do the things other teenagers my age are getting to do, and i'm not getting to live my life to the fullest. And I strongly encourage if your a teen TRYING to get pregnant, don't. Wait until your ready.. so you can provide for you baby and your financially and emotional stable enough to take care of him or her. Do not bring a baby into this world not knowing how your going to afford it or take care of it. If you guys need or anything or have any questions i'm here and i'd be glad to help!
- Written by whitneylashae