Ugh... I am SO glad I found this site. I'm 14 years old, and I've read a lot of stories about girls my age with children. Ever since I was a little girl, I've absolutely ADORED kids. I've always been surrounded by them, and I'm great at taking care of them. A lot of people ask me to babysit for them because I can keep the children entertained for long periods of time, and I can change my moods 180 degrees when I need too.
Now, here's my problem: Lately, as in, for the past year or so, I've been having these... dreams, I guess you could call them, where I've either been pregnant or had a child of my own. They're really starting to get to me now. What I'm trying to say is, I think I WANT a baby, but at the same time, I know that I don't. I know I should wait, because I know what goes along with the responsibility. I have tons of experience with kids between 0-12 years old, so I know what's involved with taking care of them. I also know how expensive baby stuff is, because I have spent a lot of time on babiesrus.com and amazon.com in the baby section just scoping out the average prices.
I just wish there was something I could do to get rid of the urge... I'm afraid that someday, my reasoning with myself isn't going to be enough and I'm going to give into the urges.