dad kissing stomachFor about 3 years I was off and on with 3 guys, and all I thought was that it was love but honestly it was infatuation and lust. The man I truly love, care about and cant live without — is the man that has kept me from my past and showed me a future of happiness and greatness. A man that promise me a life other than what anyone would imagine. He would travel the world to hold my hand. Bring down the stars and the moon and place it around my neck.

Never have I thought to have fallen in love wit a man so not my “type”. This man has made me realize that maybe there is that one person in life that can make you change for the better. I met him over 2 and a 1/2 years ago, and we have been together ever since. I realize all my mistakes after he opened my eyes to this wonderful life. I’m only 17 but, never have i felt a love so strong.

Guys spit game, they said the “loved me” but yet they played me. I thought i was a good girlfriend, and great friend but after word gets out that its over, their true color begin to shine through.

For about 3 years i was off and on with 3 guys, and all i thought was that it was love but honestly it was infatuation and lust. The man i truely love, care about and cant live without…Is the man that has kept me from my past and showed me a future of happiness and greatness. A man that promise me a life other than wat anyone would imagine. He would travel the world to hold my hand. Bring down the stars and the moon and place it around my neck.

This man has met my family and yet they dont get along. In thier eyes he should be the last man i would ever want. It’s hard and crazy. For over two years i have kept the secret of our relationship, only my closest friends know my true feelings. Two years of hiding, two years of lieing, and two years of truth and love. What we have can never be broken, no matter how many people step infront. Our opinions may clash at time but we can always agree and be OK in the end.

After these two year, having a baby was something we have talked about for months now, was i ready to handle so much responsibility? I know he was [He’s a father of two amazing boys], but can be a good mother? Abortion was something I never believe in. You can open your legs and say “yes” but you have the dignity to say “no” to a life with no word or say. What would my family think of me? What would they do if they found out who’s the father? So many questions only 9 months to answer them.

Think about what you really want. Make the best desicions you can make, and dont settle for anything less than perfect. Keep your head up and give yourself respect. If your not ready to be a mother or a father, than your not ready to have sex. I should take my own advise! But if a child was to present him/herself in my life, I prey to god that I will give this being the best of everything, I would give it what i never had with lots of love that can’t be said.

 

Thank you for taking the time to read this…

 

Jessica