I am 9 weeks pregnant. I am married I have a 10 year old and 9 month old. My husband does not want any more kids. He says if I have it he will divorce me and pay but not have anything to do with it!
I love my husband very much but this isn’t the first time he has pressured me in to an abortion. About 4 1/2 years ago when we were dating for 6 months I had got pregnant and I believed at the time I could not afford to raise another baby. So I had terminated the pregnancy. That was my 2nd one that I had.
I do not believe it to be a form of birthcontrol but I sometimes make really bad decisions and accidents happened.
I am very confused.
I look at my 9 month old and cry because this is my husband who I thought loved me and would be supportive. Instead, I get that I did this on purpose.
I want to finish school and have a life with the children I have now. But mainly I am afraid that I can not do it on my own.
My 10 year old’s dad comes and goes as he pleases.
I have made me an appointment at Choices to talk to a councelor. I do not know what to do!
Do I lose my husband and have the baby? Or do I go through what might be the my breaking point.
I always thought I did not have a conscience but the more I think about this I am not the same person I was when I was so foolish so long ago.