girl with scarf Before he arrived, I was a teen whose life was very predictable. I was a heavy user and  I did anything I could get my hands on. I loved being in reckless relationships and school didn’t matter to me.  Nothing mattered to me. Nothing at all. I became pregnant in 2005 — I was a junior in High School and ultimately I dropped out. I was scared. I did have a boyfriend but he couldn’t keep a job, or provide for us.

My son has been a blessing in many ways. Before he arrived, I was a teen whose life was very predictable. I was a heavy user and  I did anything I could get my hands on. I loved being in reckless relationships and school didn’t matter to me.  Nothing mattered to me. Nothing at all. I became pregnant in 2005 — I was a junior in High School and ultimately I dropped out. I was scared. I did have a boyfriend but he couldn’t keep a job, or provide for us.

 

After Izaiah was born, I was still depressed. I smoked pot and I went out quite a bit. And I still didn’t go back to school. Reality didn’t hit me until one particular day.

I was breastfeeding my son, and I just got it — don’t smoke pot! I couldn’t believe myself! At the time, I couldn’t face reality and smoking pot I thought could help me deal with my life.  I looked at my sweet little innocent angel and decided, right then and there, I needed to change. And I did. 

I left my old friends behind, Izaiahs dad, and the relocated the two of us. I moved with my family and I am now even going back to school. As a matter of fact I jut got accepted to college. I haven’t used since that day over a year ago.

My love for my son has helped me through all of the tough decisions I’ve made and deal with everyday. I couldn’t imagine what our lives would be like if I would have stayed, and I wont ever know. I do know that my life now isn’t predictable. I’m not just another teen with a baby or drug problem.. I’m a mother in every shape and form. And I love it!