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January 8, 2007 at 6:34 am #14309UrLat1nDym3
Well here goes my story, hopefully its useful to many. I was always a girl with straight A’s and a mind like no one elses. I was very mature and outspoken for as long as I can remember.A girl with so many dreams and so many goals that she’d never thought would even come close to throwing away. One day, my grandfather died I was but a mere child and experiencing the devestation of loss…Thats when everything changed.
Suddenly life hit me, I knew then that life isnt as beautiful as it all seems. I always thought that I’d marry the guy of my dreams, and have kids and be respected and loved and so on. I suddenly realized that life wasnt going to treat me any different than anyone else and I’d have to struggle to get where I always dreamt to be.Grades dropped and so did I. I was no longer that little girl who although was mature didnt know what life was all about. I became suicidal, wanting to end it all, end everything that seemed hard, because life suddenly did not make any sense to me. I was but 11 when I went through what I call, "this stage"…
So I stood up one day and let it all out…I cried for hours, threw out all the blades and walked in the rain and I made it…I thank God I grew out of that and learned that God wouldnt let me go through something I just couldnt bear.
However, i never forgot i just learned to let it all go..
Two years later, I met Raymond…He helped me out through many hard times and became not only my boyfriend but my bestfriend.i couldnt hide from him he was different… I gave him my all, and altough I dont regret it I do think it was a mistake.
Im but 13 now, I know many things and have much to still learn…but dont we all. In my opinion giving someone your all is meant to be when your married and when your ready..Im Not ready.
"I might be pregnant"
I told Raymond. And this is when my world started crashing down all over again…
The one person I thought was going to be there through thick and thin is suddenly drifting away.
What do i do… I cant come up with the answer, all i can do is sit here and wait find out the answer and learn once more and get over just another stage…
Looking within myself, I said "Im ready to face whatever comes upon me, cause I know I’ll make it through"
To all the girls out there, you can do it…Believe in yourself…
Many have put me down and I guess its all for a reason…whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger, I wont have an abortion but i’ve learned that if Im willing to keep what god has given me that someone else can not have, I am blessed and I will get through this and I will have that baby and i will not be put down…I can make it…
Look within youself and tell yourself you can too!
No matter how young, how inexperienced you can make it…Just believe…
Hopefully this has made a difference…Need anyone to talk 2..Im here..January 11, 2007 at 3:26 pm #14361kez_mummy_2_skye
Wow that was amazing to read that and to see that you are only 13 years old….i thought it was a post from about a 20+ yo…. Try not to stress yourself yet about the prospect of becoming pregnant until you know the real results. Does your boyfriend not want a baby?
I hope that things look up for you and it seems that if you are pregnant you will be mature and strong enough to take care of a bubJanuary 13, 2007 at 4:04 am #14418Rdorman
Wow.. you seem so strong.. always keep your head up.. I hope whatever may happen you will just become stronger. You already seem very mature and like a wonderful young lady.. I hope you know that and don’t let anybody tell you differently or put you down. I have faith in you and I know if you are pregnant that you will stand up for what you believe in.. good luck.. and let me know what happens.January 13, 2007 at 9:37 am #14426jade72
Hi there. I am blown away by how very strong and mature you are. You seem like such a great person and I can’t imagine why anyone would ever want to put you down but then again people are often threatened and jealous of people that don’t just TALK:) You act and think for yourself and you are going to make such an amazing mother. I’m so very proud of you and can’t believe that your bf is not by your side to support you. Take care and I wish you the best of luck. I’m here if you need to talk but it seems that I would be coming to you for advice:)January 13, 2007 at 12:08 pm #14430Babygurl801d
i went through thost horible things except i lost more, than my grandfather.. i lost my mom, and 5 siblings…. just when you think you had it bad, theres someone out there who has it worse.
met a guy who became my best friend, fell head over heels in love. lost my virginty to him, and then later on he raped me, I didnt want to do it because i had a bf (who im with now), i thought i was pregnant with his kid. i called him to tell him. because i thought what he did was okay….. and he freaked out on me… your a hoe… a slut.. there aint no way that baby is mine… your trippen.. thats when it hit me..
THIS WASNT LOVE, THIS ISNT TRUE… WHEN THE ‘TEST’ SHOWED UP NEAGATIVE, I PRAYED TO GOD AND SAID THANK YOU.. IM GLAD I WASNT FORCED TO SPEND MY LIFE WITH SOMEONE SO HORRIBLE.. WHO I CLAIMED LOVED ME.. AND NEEDED ME.i am now over him 100 percent… AND THANK GOD FOR THAT.. GLAD I WASNT PREGNANT WITH HIS KID…
MORE THAN HAPPY TO BE ENGAGED TO THE GUY IM WITH NOW, I AM HAVING HIS BABY. AND THROUGH THICK AND THIN I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS, NOW.. ITS NOT FIGHTING OR RUDE, ALTHOUGH IT HAPPENS.. ITS NOTHING OR EVEN CLOSE TO AS IT WAS IN THE PAST
I GOT RAPED BY A PERSON WHO WAS A BEST FRIEND, AN EX, A DREAM, LIKE A BROTHER..I THOUGHT…
I RECENTLY TOLD MY BOYFRIEND ABOUT WHAT HAPPEND.. AND HE CRIED WITH ME. HE WAS HURT FOR ME. AND SURPRISED BECAUSE IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO TELL HIM, (1 YR 4 MO)BUT NOW THAT I HAVE TOLD HIM ITS MADE ME CLOSER TO HIM..January 29, 2007 at 12:41 pm #14811soccercutiexoxox13
wow. you are an amazing inspiration…i too went through being suicidal, after my best friend died. i am still the same…i was in rehad for cutting, and a crisis center for attempted suicide. i still dont know how to stop though
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