So i had a dream the other night that i gave birth to a little girl and i was just holding her and feeding her but then i accidently left her in a car. it was weird it was so sweet but then it turned into a nightmare. i dont know what to make of it but it made me nervous. but also a little excited for when i get to have a baby (except the leaving her in the car part) because i remember feeling wonderful in my dream when i was holding her. its the best feeling i have had in a while and it was only a dream.
now as im writing this i think i realize why i may have had the dream. i had an abortion a year and a half ago and it might be the guilt coming out. i wonder if it was girl. i cant believe what i did.